2017/02/18

Commonground Opening Party

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My friends James & Morgan (Silo) have opened a new café/bar in Mitte, Commonground. Last night was the opening party and I had the pleasure of sipping on the amazing Made in Cuba Welcome Drink and some beers surrounded by good friends. Not only do they serve great drinks (my sweet friend Fiona is working behind the bar, she's one of the greatest bartenders this city has to offer!) - they open early in the morning serving delicious breakfast and also cups of amazing coffee, continuing until late night. I'm moving in.

2017/02/17

My hero

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My hero, Johan. We have had, and we still have, so many ups and downs, because here it comes: I am very (very) sick. Johan always told ME: Sandra, you've showed me what love is. All I can say is: THAT man has showed me what true fucking crazy loco fantastic love is. What he's done for me is... Pure love.

I'm 38 and it's about time I start taking care of myself, which means GO TO A DOCTOR and tell the whole story. I used to think taking care of myself meant to leave everyone else out, doctors included (only went to doctors a few times to calm down friends/family). Someone who deals with my disease professionally on a daily basis, and who knows me since I was born, has recently diagnosed WHAT I suffer from and it helps a lot to know what it is. Now that I know, it's so obvious - everything is hopefully going to fall into place, instead of pieces.

This is going to be a long, life-time long (because it's chronic), struggle that has been a fucking WAR for so many years and hopefully (hopefully) the war is going to be over soon. I can live with the struggle, but this war that I'm at now is about to kill me.

I want to be open about this, and I will tell you more when I'm ready. Until then I will focus on getting better and still post pictures here and maybe not too many personal stories (unless you are interested, sometimes personal stories can be scary, but I hope to help other people by telling my story). Thank you for reading.

2017/02/15

Daydreaming

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The sun is out and you get a hint of Spring. Daydreaming of sitting in a Biergarten.

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Or maybe on that terrace overlooking the TV-tower.

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Or outside an Eck-Kneipe (pub at a corner) listening to Bonnie Tyler's voice stumbling out of the door via the loudspeakers.

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Daydreaming of long walks with Johan, now and when we're old.

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This makes me long for feeling inspired again.

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To do something new.

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It's getting lighter, brighter, easier. I hope.

2017/02/14

From grey to colour

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I guess the two top pictures show how cold it was this morning as I walked with Johan to the S-Bahn. Decided to search for some colour before I went back to the warmth indoors. This week's mornings have started so beautifully with a super bright bedroom and warm fluffy duvets. I'm doing a fast again and will stay in a bubble until Friday when it's time to show my broken face at an opening party. It's healing surprisingly fast though, very thankful for that. See you!

2017/02/13

Tiles, home, snow, dog & an accident

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This and that from my phone from Jan 13 until yesterday. Berlin tiles love & milk bath love.

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From a Saturday I spent in the kitchen & from a laundry day.

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Then the snow came.

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My phone is so half dead now that it doesn't survive minus degrees Celsius, not even with a charger connected to it.

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The foggy morning & I've been hanging out with my dog friend Nena, she's amazing.

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And BANG, I had an accident. Fell on my face the other day (missed a step) and after resting the whole weekend, I feel pretty good. So happy I didn't break any bones. Shared a plate of halloumi and falafel with Johan last night, it was amazingly tasty.

Happy Monday!